July 11, 2009
Dear Diary, I'm sorry I haven’t been writing a lot, I know it’s been a pretty long time but with the start of sophomore year and soccer practice, I’ve just been so busy. Anyways, I ran into Miguel again at school. It's crazy how two people can go to the same school and not see each other unless they like text them to meet up in school somewhere. We started talking again like on the phone and stuff. It was so awkward because of the whole situation at Julia’s party. I keep replaying that night over and over again in my head. How embarrassed he made me feel about myself. Like I knew what sex was, at least I thought I did. But it's different, he's a guy his older brothers probably taught him everything about sex. While I'm just hear being told not to have any type of interaction with boys by my mom and dad. And school isn’t much help either, they stop teaching sex ed awhile ago when parents started complaining that it would get their kids pregnant. Like that’s so annoying, wouldn't teaching us about sex and condoms and all that stuff prevent us from getting pregnant. Lani and Chris in 12th grade just had a baby, Lani told my older sister Julia that she thought condoms were optional and didn't really prevent you from getting pregnant. Julia reads a lot of everything so she knows the dos and don'ts of sex. Only she won't tell me because she thinks I'm “too young”, just like my mom and dad. That's so not fair. I feel like I'm ready to have sex when I'm around Miguel, he just gives me this different feeling. Like an urge, I don't know how to explain it. Plus I've known him since we went to a soccer camp in 3rd grade. We’ve practically grown up together, so I trust him. I have to go mom is yelling about dinner being ready. Until I write again. Love, Imani October 27, 2009 Dear Diary, Giiiirl I think I’m finally going to do it. Quick update (I'm so horrible at writing here it's always a large gap lmao sorry) Miguel and I have been dating now for 3 months. Our families already know each other so it makes it that much easier. We’ve kissed and stuff but we’ve never done anything more than that. I’m going over his house tonight because his parents are out of town for a wedding. So I think I am going to have sex with him. Julia finally sat me down and had a whole sister heart-to-heart with me (finally). Oh my gosh diary, I did not know you could get diseases from having sex with or without a condom. I got so scared but Julia assured me that using condoms is a great way to prevent that from happening. She also explained how pregnancy can happen and yeah we're up we’re wrapping up every time. You know what's crazy I know so many kids who don’t know any of this, yet they have sex! That's scary because I know there’s a lot of schools that don’t teach sex education either. Can you imagine how many teens are put at risk because of this? I'm so glad I have my big sister to teach me sex ed, I just wish more adults understood the importance of teaching us so young you know. Anyways, I have to get ready for soccer practice. Until I write again. Love, Imani
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